Asshole man, can't trust himself on twitter.

For reasons inexplicable to me, reading other people's strong opinions online irritates me more than almost anything. Usually, I can restrain myself from overt action while my blood boils quietly in response. This morning however I failed. I read a tweet by friend with a strongly worded opinion. I reacted by getting all snarky and passive aggressive with my posts. They told me off and I got all offended, but apologized because I also recognized that I had been harsh and unfair. I then unfollowed them because I didn't trust my reaction to anything further they might post in response. Now I have banned my self from twitter and facebook for the day. Unfortunately I can't tell whether I'm doing this so I don't have to see anything else that irritates me today, or if I'm just pulling more passive aggressive shit to try and make poeople feel bad for me.

What kind of mean asshole person do I have to be that can't just let things lie?

I'm left wondering why strong opinions make me so irritated and uncomfortable. I personally find it very hard to form strong personal opinions about issues, so it's also hard for me to relate to people when they have strong opinions. The closest I come to strong opinions is regarding first amendment issues about which I care deeply, but when people talk about boycotts or whatever I feel like I just can't relate. Which, to me, reads as me having a lot of trouble relating to any issue that probably awont directly effect me, which makes me not much more than a narcisistic bratty childish entitled straight white guy whose unwilling to privilige check when it actually counts. In other words I'm finding it hard to resist living down all the worst stereotypes about liberal white guys .

So that is what's going on with me today. Also I'm busy with housework, and I have to get up early for work tomorrow, so I don't get to do D&D tonight which totally sucks. The more I grow up the less I like the person I find myself growing into, but I have trouble seeing how to pull out of the existential nosedive I feel myself in.